S'ok. I decide I will read the ritual and only fringe participate. I forget that 1) we're using candles for lighting and I'm night blind like a damn mole and 2) that I already learned that the written word goes much faster than the big paragraph looks like. As I begin reading the ritual (and I kinda of whizzed through grounding/centering on the erroneous assumption that all 5 of us were capable of doing it liketysplit and got the feeling immediately after moving onward that all were not) I realize this FUCKING paragraph is damn short and lacking in much detail. Well obviously it is meant for lots of self embellishment. Obviously it is a guideline. Obviously it is assumed that I knew this already. Duh - PJ, please meet Obviously.
It's called not being properly prepared. Period. So as I'm reading and realizing I begin to embellish the hell out of it. I add what seem like long spaces to it. Apparently I'm living at the speed of light because for the pauses were miniscule from the participants POV. Duh - PJ, please meet the TimeWarp of Guided Meditation™.
Lesson three of this day - just do the damn meditation with everyone, remember what you can from the guidelines, but PARTICIPATE because you can then gauge the time, the depth, and the pauses needed much more accurately. Duh - PJ, meet your damn self because this one you should have figured out prior to doing it.
WWwwwhhhheeeeeeee ............ all in all, for having it tossed at me the day before it wasn't wholly awful, but it could have been so much better. Eh, it's a learning group. Good damn thing. ;-)