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For a ritual we were doing a guided meditation. A member wanted me to do it. I found one that would work in a book for "kinda" what she wanted to do. I emailed her the blurb of the intent of the ritual and asked her if this would work or did she want to do something else? No answer and it's now 2 days before the ritual (she asked me less than a week ahead, but I'm adaptable). So we were together the day before, she said we'd discuss it then. Okay - day before I take the book the rite is from and two others with me for her to peruse. I acknowledge it is not really what she wants and we can do what it is she wants for the ritual, just to tell me basically what type of mystery she looking to achieve and I'll write it accordingly. So she decides, no the one in the book is good enough, or she decided by default because her life is crazy busy the past couple, and future couple, weeks and it's just too hard to think.

S'ok. I decide I will read the ritual and only fringe participate. I forget that 1) we're using candles for lighting and I'm night blind like a damn mole and 2) that I already learned that the written word goes much faster than the big paragraph looks like. As I begin reading the ritual (and I kinda of whizzed through grounding/centering on the erroneous assumption that all 5 of us were capable of doing it liketysplit and got the feeling immediately after moving onward that all were not) I realize this FUCKING paragraph is damn short and lacking in much detail. Well obviously it is meant for lots of self embellishment. Obviously it is a guideline. Obviously it is assumed that I knew this already. Duh - PJ, please meet Obviously.

It's called not being properly prepared. Period. So as I'm reading and realizing I begin to embellish the hell out of it. I add what seem like long spaces to it. Apparently I'm living at the speed of light because for the pauses were miniscule from the participants POV. Duh - PJ, please meet the TimeWarp of Guided Meditation™.

Lesson three of this day - just do the damn meditation with everyone, remember what you can from the guidelines, but PARTICIPATE because you can then gauge the time, the depth, and the pauses needed much more accurately. Duh - PJ, meet your damn self because this one you should have figured out prior to doing it.

WWwwwhhhheeeeeeee ............ all in all, for having it tossed at me the day before it wasn't wholly awful, but it could have been so much better. Eh, it's a learning group. Good damn thing. ;-)

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musiquephan
Sep. 5th, 2005 01:42 pm (UTC)
Oh.will.you.stop. LOL It was a terrific meditation. Reading them is always hard. The TimeWarp of Guided Meditation must be a prerequisite to becoming a member of this group...cause each one of us does it! LOL

Wow. By the way...big paws! I never knew they were that heavy ::giggles::
pjvj
Sep. 5th, 2005 07:32 pm (UTC)
Ok. I'm stopped. :P~

Thank Musique, every now and then I need to be I did okay.

Wow - those paws ARE big -- whatever will Z think? ;-)
musiquephan
Sep. 6th, 2005 10:20 pm (UTC)
Those paws could deliver a good swat. Z would be content to simply please me ;) ::snark::
pjvj
Sep. 5th, 2005 07:57 pm (UTC)
P.S. I felt the energy peaking, I felt the slight dip before release. I felt it much more thoroughly and intimately than before, and felt the "cue" for release. So there, I said a good thing about it. :P~. (There were other good things like I lurved my candles and cauldron and almost setting your new house on fire *cough*, but being in tune with the energy like that was a big good thing.)
pjvj
Sep. 6th, 2005 12:26 am (UTC)
Decidied to clarify - I felt the *group* energy peak,dip, and I ran it and released it. (As opposed to general "I feel the energy" stuff.)
musiquephan
Sep. 6th, 2005 10:18 pm (UTC)
The energy was, indeed, really good. I hope it was good partly because you were good, as a group we are good and the energy of the house. A triple combo :) It felt really intense.

AND I LOVE THE PIG!!
firefly124
Sep. 5th, 2005 02:44 pm (UTC)
I'm sure it was fine! I've never tried leading a guided meditation while actually participating in it. I have a feeling I'd get lost in it. When I lead them, granted, it's usually at church, with a lot of people who are *not* used to doing lots of meditation (except when I'm leading, because I always do them). What I end up doing is at each pause, I literally time it. The increments I use are 10, 30, and on the outside 60 seconds. With people who are way more experienced, I'd probably go way longer, because I know I am always the one thinking internally "Wait, stop, I need more time here!" Have you tried leading them while actively participating before? How did that go?
pjvj
Sep. 5th, 2005 07:44 pm (UTC)
No, I've not tried leading while doing, but I was thinking I could do it "lightly" to feel the time better. I wouldn't be as involved as if someone else was doing it. When you do a giuded one alone you can do both - ok, that's a bit different, but still.... Actually I thought of the timing thing and I did it only a little, I needed to count higher. I prefer probably not doing it that way I can watch and make sure everyone is reacting ok to it.

As time seemed to s t r e t c h out I wondered if people were thinking, "Ok, I've been 'approaching' the river for a mile now, can I get there, please?" [The answer is no they weren't thinking that - lol.] However, I do know from being guided that if you're already at the river ahead of the group it makes no matter - you go as you are meant to.

I see it like giving speeches - you have 10 pages typed and even if you practice it when you're up there speaking it it is a *fast* speech.

So do them when you do a service - do you ask for feedback right after? I'm curious if you get a lot from the non-meditators. Of course, being UU they're more open to it or have at least been exposed to it.
firefly124
Sep. 6th, 2005 12:53 am (UTC)
I see it like giving speeches - you have 10 pages typed and even if you practice it when you're up there speaking it it is a *fast* speech.

Absolutely!

So do them when you do a service - do you ask for feedback right after? I'm curious if you get a lot from the non-meditators. Of course, being UU they're more open to it or have at least been exposed to it.

I've gotten mixed feedback, a lot of which tends to be along the lines of "that was really different," which tells me jack.
pjvj
Sep. 6th, 2005 12:57 am (UTC)
LOL. "That was really different." The diplomatic answer. Not a ringing endorsement, but hey - it's your service, they can run theirs as they choose. ;-)
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